Food as fuel

Wow first off I forgot to email last week and let everyone know I posted 2 new blogs so to back track for 1 second......last Monday I went back to Trim Care, the medical weight loss program I used previously and had such success with. I am still going to WW because honestly I paid for 10 more weeks before I decided to rejoin TrimCare and I really enjoy my team leader a lot. I was on WW for 12 weeks and I lost 8.6lbs and for me that was just not cutting it. I got home and opened my email and found ans email from a magazine with an ad about TrimCare and I went back in and rejoined. I went back today and weighed in and I am down 9lbs. WOO HOO!! Fill in the Happy Dance here. I was hoping to lose about 5 but wasn't really sure because I'm house sitting and unlike my crazy self my friend does not own a scale. (I live on mine...yes Addie I am back to that again...lol) I already noticed a few changes this week. First off I started on Monday so but Saturday when I returned to work my medicines had all kicked in. (they help suppress my appetite and also make me not like the taste of sweets as more or crave them either) I go in and there is pumpkin cheesecake (2 of my favs in 1) ...I saw it and nothing then suddenly I saw the label and the nutritional information and a feeling of disgust filled my body. I looked around the room and there were all these different mini candy bars and candy canes...again disgust, even repulsion. I ate nothing. Second I made a commitment to myself to pack my lunch for work the night before every day and I followed through on it. I also precooked some brown rice and chicken breasts then weighed and measured them and prepackaged them so I would have them handy. These were very handy little meal ideas. Sometimes I threw in a 1/2 cup of red beans or made mixed it in a bowl with a low fat broccoli and cheese steamer pack. Third thing I noticed is the last 4 days have been extremely stressful for me and normally I would eat my way through that. Food was my comfort, my mother, my lover, my heart, my soul, my everything. It filled in any and every single space I ever needed it to fill. This week it only filled 1 space.....fuel. It fuel my body and gave me energy. The only purpose food should really fill after all. I have always had an unhealthy relationship with food and it was so nice to not turn to it this week. My doc also put me on a cortisol blocker so at least that with help keep that stress from appearing on my belly. : ) I am trying to come to terms with this stress because it's really to a point of picking my battles. It's very frustrating indeed but at least am working through it in my mind and not in a gallon of ice cream followed by 1/2 a cheesecake and a box of chocolates. I mean I like to think through most things anyway, but in the past if they were stressful I usually was eating and thinking at the same time...lol. I am so very proud of myself and just wanted to share these things with you.