week 22 & 23 combined

Ok again I was not able to go in last week for my weigh in because I was in a training. Which BTW was an amazing experiences that re-grounded me in so many ways I can't even begin to tell you. So over the past few weeks I have allowed myself to cheat here and there, in moderation. The only thing is I have also slacked off in all the other aspects of my diet. I stopped logging my food everyday, I can't even begin to tell you how little of water I have been drinking and my exercise has beeen lacking some as well. These things are not acceptable and today was my reality check. I got on the scale and for the first time in the course of my "diet" I had a gain. Not a huge one only 1.4lbs which makes my loss backslide to 65.4lbs. This is nothing that I am going to beat myself up about or be angry at myself about. I am human, I made an error and I am now going to fix that error. I have to admit I have noticed since allowing certain things back into my diet that I didn't use to eat (i.e. mashed potatoes) my stomach has been a little funny. I think it is my body's way of saying "hey I don't like that quit putting it in me". Your body loves healthy wonderful food, it's your mind that likes the bad stuff. When your body has been use to the good fuel and you put garbage in it really doesn't react well. It's about like putting sugar water in the gas tank of a Ferrari. I took myself shopping today and bought a few new clothes. (all clearance stuff...otherwise I am wasting money...lol..that lesson I have learned) I also went to Borders and bought myself a few books to read. Here's what I bought:
1. A New Earth-Eckhart Tolle
2. The Four Agreements-Don Miguel Ruiz
3. Buddha A Story of Enlightenment- Deepak Chopra
4. Dude, Where's my Country?- Michael Moore
5. Eastern Philosophy-Kevin Burns
and last but not least I found a great little book on clearance (yes I love clearance stuff!) called Diet and Exercise Diary. It's great because it gives you logs for your food and exercise daily along with places to put in weekly summary of your mood, results and what not. It has a weekly planner to schedule your exercise and then a place to log what you actually do. I plan on making good use of this little book.

So I am letting this gain go and looking forward to seeing the scale move back in a downward position next week. Thanks again for all of your love and support. It is great appreciated and recognized. I am thankful to see that I have grown enough to see I am steering off path before I am so far gone I can't even see the path anymore and give up all hope. I am thankful that I can acknowledge the issue and not hate myself or beat myself up. I am thankful that I have corrected this issue and I am moving forth. Thanks again for all of your support.